Today's picture was taken in May 2008 in front of my rhododendren bush. I have taken Cameron's picture in front of it's blooms since he could stand.
10 long weeks today. I'm not sure how this can be. The emotions are still so raw, it feels like yesterday. I am so physically and emotionally exhausted, it feels like a lifetime ago.
I've always felt that Samantha was an "old soul." She makes comments like "when I was the mommy I did......" or "when I had my baby....." It doesn't seem as though she is playing make believe. She feels these prior events. Tonight, I was asking her about her day. She started telling me a long tale about how she and "bubby" played with her toys and watched Wall-E on her dvd player. She said "grandma was here for a minute but then she had to go." I want to ask so many questions, but I don't want to steer or influence her experiences. She is not at all troubled by them. They seem perfectly normal to her. I have to admit I am jealous. I wish I had them too.
Tonight, we are asking for prayers for our friend Matthew. His caringbridge site is: http://caringbridge.org/visit/matthewbarr He had a bone marrow transplant this summer. We were in the hospital at many of the same times. He has to have an MRI next week to get more information about a new spot in his brain. We are praying this is nothing bad.
Until next time