Am I really going to blog?: Lethargic

Sunday, March 22, 2009

Lethargic

I have been feeling a bit lethargic lately. Simply exhausted at times. It's not like I am engaging in strenuous activity, just trying to get through daily life. It feels harder this week than it has in a couple of months. I don't really know why. Hoping to snap back soon & get back in the swing of things.

March 22, 2008:

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Another J5 kid has relapsed. Please keep our friend Ryan & his family in your prayers. http://www.teamsalmons.com/

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Lori

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Gina SampsonMarch 23, 2009 at 6:55 PM
Two steps forward and one back, seems to happen often in life. Don't feel guilty, you've been through a lot and should be tired. Try to take care or your needs, and get your rest if you are tired.

I'll pray for Ryan and family. I drove past Childrens Friday on a trip to Columbus, I see that building in a whole new dimension.

Gina
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herMarch 23, 2009 at 10:27 PM
Dear Daddy, give Lori a boost tomorrow morning when she awakes...help her to sense the strength she needs comes from You. Lead her to a friendly arm that will give her some needed joy ....just for the day Lord!

Because of Jesus....Amen

Joy, DeeDee
John 15:11
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I HOPE....

I hope you never have to hear the words, 'Your child has cancer.'

I hope you never have to hear, 'The prognosis is not good.'

I hope you never have to prepare to undergo radiation or chemotherapy, have a port surgically inserted into their chest, be connected to IV poles. Look at you with fear in their eyes and say, 'Don't worry Mommy, everything will be okay.'

I hope you never have to hold your child as they vomit green bile.

I hope you never have to feed them ice chips for lunch.

I hope you never have to watch the 'cure' you pray for slowly take away their identity, as they lose their hair, become skeletal, swell up from steroids, develop severe acne, become barely or unable to walk or move, and look at you with hope in their eyes and say,'It's going to be okay, Mommy.'

I hope that you never have to stay in the hospital for weeks, months, or years at a time, where there is no privacy, sleeping on a slab, with your face to the wall, where you cry in muffled silence.

I hope you never have to see a mother, alone, huddled, in a dark hospital corridor...crying quietly, after just being told, 'There is nothing more we can do.'

I hope you never have to watch a family wander aimlessly, minutes after their child's body has been removed.

I hope you never have to use every bit of energy you have left, with all of this going on around you to remain positive, and the feelings of guilt, sorrow, hope and fear, overwhelm you.

I hope you never have to see a child's head bolted to the table as they receive radiation.

I hope you never have to take your child home (grateful but so afraid) in a wheelchair because the chemo and radiation has damaged their muscles, 35 pounds lighter, pale, bald, and scarred. And they look at you with faith in their eyes and say, 'It's going to be okay Mommy.'

I hope you never have to face the few friends that have stuck beside you and hear them say, 'Thank God that is over with,'...because you know it never will be. Your life becomes a whirl of doctors, blood tests and MRI's and you try to get your life back to 'normal'. While living in mind-numbing fear that any one of those tests could result in hearing the dreaded words...'The cancer has returned' or 'The tumor is growing.' And your friends become even fewer.

I hope you never have to experience any of these things... Because...only then...Will you understand...

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