Thursday, March 3, 2011


"When you feel like giving up, try to remember why you held on so long in the first place."


My boy should be 12 today. I should be bickering with my pre-teen about clothes, music, video games, etc.

Instead, I went to the cemetary and sat by his grave. And cried.

Then I came home. And cried.

I thought about making some of his favorite foods tonight for dinner. Cried some more.

Put my pjs back on and poured my first glass of wine.


March 3, 1999

My little fighter from the start. Born 4 weeks early, he spent his first 15 days in the NICU. And I thought that was hard.....


March 3, 2000

My little man turned one! Chubby little guy loved his cake. Looking at him here it is hard to believe he had such a rough start. Hard to believe what was still to come.


March 3, 2003

This was his 4th birthday, deep in the Spiderman phase. AML diagnosis just 3 weeks away....

March 3, 2006

Cam & Ian celebrated their birthdays together this year.
March 3, 2008

In just a few short months, they both wold be gone.


  1. Thinking of you today. It is ok to cry and miss him. You were blessed to be chosen as his mother. Praying for you!
    Eileen from Michigan

  2. (((hugs))) I'm glad you have the joyful pictures. I'm so sorry that he's not with you still. Crying with you.