Samantha

has been crying at school. Her teacher called & said that she was sobbing in the classroom. Sam says she misses Cameron. She says that she doesn't want to go to gym class because "that's were Bubby's funeral was." Again, trying not to over-react, I asked that they call her 6th grade cousin to talk to her & if that didn't work, then to call me back & I would come to the school. They never called. It was a long afternoon of wondering and worrying. When I got home, she was painting her nails. We made cookies and talked a while. I think she is just starting to understand the permanancy of death and to feel the impact of her losses. She took 2 huge blows in one month. Now, she hears us talking of friends and family who have various illnesses and injuries and she wonders about their fates. She is worried, but doesn't have the vocabulary to express her fears. She is afraid, but can't express what she is afraid of. I know that children re-experience losses as they mature so this will be a re-occuring theme for us. I hope I am able to recognize if or when it is time to seek outside professional help. For now, I think we can manage it ok. I hope I'm not wrong. Again.

Happy Easter

I hope everyone had a nice holiday.